Naked and Crying
I found myself in an all too familiar state this afternoon.
At times in life many of us have found ourselves in a moment of great despair, pushed to a point where we break.
Often it hits us when we are all alone, overwhelmed we let it out, tears flowing, body shaking, feeling naked and alone (sometimes we’re actually naked in bed or coming out of the shower) and it hits us square in the face.
The truth of our sadness or unhappiness can’t be hidden anymore.
Something in our life is making us miserable
Our body.
Our mind.
Our relationships.
Our business or career.
One or all of these areas can suck for us.
I know for me over the years I have found myself at incredible low points or “bottoms.”
Points at which I had to let it out – I couldn’t hold it in any longer.
Food – Sex – Booze could no longer mask my feelings. Usually these things were making it worse and were causing even more issues for me.
I remember one time in particular I was in the shower – openly crying, just letting the water run over me as I was overtaken with emotion. I knew I couldn’t continue living my life in the manner I had been.
Something had to change.
I also knew that only I could do anything about it.
The next day I gave up drinking and got sober ( 6+ years now at the time of writing this).
The great thing about hitting bottom
These “bottoms” were usually followed by me taking massive action, picking myself up by my bootstraps and forging ahead.
I have done this during:
Business failures,
Relationships ending,
Loss of life close to me,
Deciding to no longer live as an obese and weak person.
However, there have been times (albeit more rare) that I have been this emotional in times of great happiness!
The birth of my children.
Business successes.
Achieving great results competing in the bench press.
Today I once again found myself naked and in tears.
This time it was one of joy and celebration.
As I stepped on the scale naked I weighed in and saw these numbers flash,
2-7-9
279 lbs.
I had done it.
From 398 lbs – obese – weak and broken mentally – unhappy with my current levels of business – my mindset – the quality of my relationships
Now 279 lbs – feeling 1000% better physically and mentally.
My business and relationships have improved dramatically (even in the midst of this crazy covid world).
I hadn’t been this light in 30 years!
I got very emotional.
There I was naked and crying.
Not gonna lie, this ‘Naked” version looked much better ..lol!
This is definitely a good version of naked and crying.
It was great to just sit there and take it all in.
Appreciate how far I had come.
Look at what amazing things had changed for me.
See what exciting new opportunities now present themselves to me.
Acknowledge and respect all the hard work I had just accomplished (something we don’t do enough with ourselves and our accomplishments)
All this as I turn 53 in a few days.
At 398 lbs I felt that time was running out and I would miss out on so much.
At 279 I feel like there is so much that can and will be accomplished with the time I have in front of me!
Struggle – Persevere – Succeed- Inspire